balance

I write often about the heart.  I suppose when I do, it is that it may be interchangeable with the soul.  But to clarify, there is a difference between the body, soul and spirit. (Some say there is a difference between the soul and the heart but I don’t subscribe to that. You can research and make your own conclusions.)

Basically, the body is what houses the physical part of us.   The soul is the physical, emotional and mental aspect of a person.  The spirit is the divine connection where we meet with God after having come to faith.

(Interesting, there are 3 parts to us just like the God whose image we are created in has 3 parts to Him…the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.)

So, when I write about the heart, technically I am writing about the soul. Just as an FYI in more obscure languages they may interpret the soul as the liver or some other vital organ because the heart does not have the same connotation to them as it does to us.

We experience emotional pain in our hearts…in our souls.  There are some events that I am walking through that hurt deep into my heart right now.  It’s hard to know where the heart pain stops and the physical pain begins. 

Because of that my spirit may become blocked…not allowing that divine connection to flow. I find it strange that at times I may need it the most, I allow my emotions to rule instead of moving right into seeking God’s peace in the Spirit with Him. (Sometimes, I wish I had a plunger to remove the blockage, wouldn’t that be easier?)

From time to time, I stubbornly hold on to that blockage.  If I let go of it, I may have to hear or know what God is teaching me through it all when I just want things status quo as it was prior to the pain…which may be the worse thing for me or those around me. 

Today as I write this, I know MY only choice is to grab that plunger and begin work on opening the flow with the Holy Spirit.  How?  By reading my Bible, praying and asking God to forgive me for my stubbornness…and of course repenting.   

Repenting…sometimes I would rather justify my actions.  I didn’t have time to read and pray, I had company. I didn’t have time, I was too tired. I didn’t have time because I overbooked my schedule…and yes, I hate to admit, I think I DESERVE to relax my mind by watching tv or by playing a game on my tablet.  (Really?)

Actually, in moderation none of those things are wrong…it is about balance.  I have been off balance lately.  God has impressed me with that.  He’s impressed me with my need to repent, use the plunger and draw closer to Him. 

Today I worked on that. He brought me to my knees.  Now I have to begin anew my practices in life.  Less tv, less overbooking, more rest, etc.  More God. My balance will return as I make Him my priority. 

Honestly, how can I get so caught up in daily things that I put the Creator (that I was made in His image) after life issues?  It makes me realize my broken humanness and the influence of the enemy to keep my focus off our God.

Surprisingly…or maybe not so…I see more clearly in my brokenness.  I hear more clearly from the Lord.  I become more dependent and more obedient to His call on my life.

So, Lord, thank You for the heart break, thank You for the brokenness! Thank You for the peace You provide in Christ during these times!

“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world.”   John 16:33

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”    Psalm 34:18